Edwards’ Resolutions & Our Daily Need.

Edwards’ Resolutions & Our Daily Need.

Early in my twenties I read Edwards’ Resolutions, a display of intent towards holiness written by a man desiring to please God with his life. I read the list over and again, taking in his precisely crafted hopes. Then I made my own list, copying some of Edwards. Resolved, to live with all my might while I do live. To take advantage of every hour given to me and to count it as grace. When I sin, to recall the nature of heart and thought that led me from temptation to action and away from God. And the list grew over the years. With each new volume of lined manilla pages I traced my resolutions once again.

In Formed for the Glory of God: Learning from the Spiritual Practices of Jonathan Edwards, Kyle Strobel shines light on Edwards’ resolutions in a way that has given me pause. Strobel juxtaposes the elder and younger Edwards,  and in this helped me to see the work of grace in my own heart. Strobel cites Edwards: “though it seems to me, that in some respects I was a far better Christian, for two or three years after my first conversion, than I am now; and lived in a more constant delight and pleasure: yet of late years, I have had a more full and constant sense of the absolute sovereignty of God, and a delight in that sovereignty; and have had more of a sense of the glory of Christ, as a mediator, as revealed in the Gospel.”

My Professor in seminary once told us, “Say I have a man who’s besetting sin is sleeping around. On average, he is sleeping with 30-40 women a year. The Lord saves that man, and we walk together as brothers. During the next year of his life, he sleeps with 3 women. Do you condemn this man? Do you doubt his salvation or his understanding of Christ’s work? Think of the standard to which you hold him. If it is holiness, no one has met that, save Christ. If it is the progressive and saving work of the Spirit – then look at how much his life has changed from where he started.” Talk about throwing a wrench in the church kid’s world.

That worldview is one that recognizes dependence, inability, and false righteousness. The saved man’s life is changed and he is still in need of grace. To think of where I have come from and where I am now, gratitude grows with every dip, every bend.

Edwards goes on, “I have a vastly greater sense, of my universal, exceeding dependence on God’s grace and strength, and mere good pleasure, of late, than I used to formerly have; and have experienced more of an abhorrence of my own righteousness. The thought of any comfort or joy, arising in me, on any consideration, or reflection on my own amiableness, or any of my performances or experiences, or any goodness of heart or life, is nauseous and detestable to me. And yet I am greatly afflicted with a proud and self-righteous spirit; much more sensibly than I used to be formerly.”

The elder Edwards is aware of his frame and open with his need. His formed voice is worth hearing, one tenored by grace–sweeter, humbler, dependent. The heart moves from a list of moral action to sitting at Christ’s feet, and calls others beside them.

My Professor, again, “The mark of a Christian is his affections and desires, not his momentary lapses. Not that he does well, but that he knows the pit out of which he was dug, and knows where to go for cleansing when he falls back into it.”

This is our road. The way of dependence is one of surrender and delight, both in recognition of our depravity and reveling in His beauty.

One thought on “Edwards’ Resolutions & Our Daily Need.

  1. You said here what I’ve been trying to find words for over the past several weeks. What a sweet, yet humbling revalation. Thank you for this. Beautifully written.

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